2007 abridged

I hadn’t really realized until I sat down to write this that 2007 was the year of radical change. I quit smoking, got pregnant, started the Riot, baked a pie, cooked a meal, started copy-editing. I sent my daughter off to school. I gave birth again (note to self, write birth [...]

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Sneaking some me-time

I should be getting ready for the impending arrival of my FIL for a late birthday/xmas visit but instead I’m hunched over the keyboard with a tepid cup of coffee trying to pretend that Chico isn’t awake in his swing.  There is a little green something–seahorse maybe?–that he alternates between flirting with and looking really [...]

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how I fared on the buy handmade challenge

Pretty damn well.  Folks who got handmade gifts:
2 aunts, 1 SIL, my FIL’s SO1 niece, 1 daughter, and Lucy’s teachers (made them bookmarks.)  And me!
Folks who got charitable gifts:
both kids, C, the cats, 2 nephews and 2 of Lucy’s cousin
And my gifts were either handmade, from a museum, or from Gaiam.  Yup, I did get [...]

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Happy Boxing Day because I may not be a Brit but there is Arsenal today

We survived the holidays. As far as I know, everyone enjoyed their presents. Frankly I’m too tired to care that much. As I wrote in an email to my Mom:
Slept in between baby and husband because eldest came shooting out of room
with nightmare (audible footsteps and panting) and climbed in with [...]

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And before I forget again…

Back before I spiraled into the pit of ennui, I received my order from Creative Wanderings and I am beyond thrilled with it!  Everything is lovely, I am completely addicted to the lip balm, and I can’t wait for Lucy to open her soap goodies tomorrow.  I may even give her the soapsicle today as [...]

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Happy Xmas, y’all

The presents are finally wrapped (those what got here), C is done with finals, and we’re working up to the grand ‘pull the house back together’ cleaning extravaganza before we head to the MIL’s for C’s birthday dinner.
It’s been quite a week.  Less crying than last weekend, fleeting bouts of anxiety, lots and lots of [...]

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A wee break

Ok, so things haven’t been sunshine and roses for the past little bit, and while I am feeling much more stable and less weepy, I need to take some time to sort through this whole new baby/holiday/not losing myself deal.  I just don’t feel like I’m doing justice to the writing thing, or much of [...]

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The truth is I don’t remember how to make friends

C had his last class dinner last night and came home close to 1 am.  Which isn’t a huge deal aside from my tendency to freak out when anyone is late which has been amplified by the post-partum exhaustion/recurrence of my ocd-like behavior (which is also always worst at Xmas time…)
The thing is, I’m lonely.  [...]

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Something in the air at Chez Nekoswan

Had you stopped by between midnight and one am, you would have found…
one baby who refused to stop nursing long enough to sleep (or who stopped sleeping every time he unlatched.)
one preschooler crying about how sad she was but who couldn’t come up with an explanation of why
one husband trying to catch a rest in [...]

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Ahem…I’m better now

I’d love to tear down that last post, but I’m going to leave it up as a reminder that I need to chill the hell out before I end up doing so much lashing out.  Seriously, I don’t know what’s up with all of the angst, but half the time I feel like I could [...]

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