3 Days

I am not so much of a wreck today as I was last night.  Last night was really bad, following a really bad day.  Anxiety by light, depression by night.  I tell myself it’s all normal, I tell myself there is no normal, but still my brain finds these ways to make me feel like [...]

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6 Days

I am hesitant to write anything about our pre-admissions visit yesterday.  On one hand, it’s a little “look at me, feel sorry for me” even for my attention-grubbing self.  On the other, kids have surgery every day and when it’s your kid who is having surgery, there’s little more comforting that remembering that fact.  And [...]

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9 days

It’s the anxiety that is the worst.  Not fear about the procedure, or about getting behind on my work–that I can deal with; it’s tangible.  The anxiety though–the waking up fine and being overwrought with dread halfway through my morning coffee, the need to move move move move to keep from becoming mired in terror–it’s [...]

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I don’t think there’s a title for this

I’ve been avoiding the entire process of writing.  Even in my classes where I am required to write, I just sort of put my head down and ram some words through.  It isn’t pretty, but I seem to be getting my points across so maybe it’s just not a pretty time.
It doesn’t feel very pretty [...]

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How’s the Writing Going?

There was a whole big long entry here that must’ve been eaten.  That really sucks.

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