I don’t know why, but somewhere between dinner and sleep I felt the most wonderful feeling: contentment. C steamed up the potatoes from the farm share and we mixed up sour cream with green onions (also from the farm) and basil from the balcony and it.was.heavenly. Lucy had a cupful of plain basil leaves before bed (after trying the onion.) So maybe it was eating something I had grown myself. Later, I tucked myself into bed with my Riot for Austerity binder to do the preliminary numbers for the week and realized that I had double-counted our mileage not once, not twice, but three times over the past 2 weeks. I then totted up our food for the week and, realized that, for the very first time, our local food made up 75% of our total groceries!
The thing is, my flowers are all blooming, my herbs are all ready to be harvested, my worms are thriving, I’m eating better than I have in a long time, Lucy is eagerly trying new foods, and I seem to have rediscovered some sort of resolve I’d lost in the midst of wallowing about in angst for the past few weeks. And it feels really good. It feels like I can handle things. To be honest, I was starting to get a little freaked out by the mood swings and crying jags. I guess I do get a pass since I’m a ball of hormones.
In baby-related news, we still have no name although we’ve taken to referring to the baby as Carl Elvis. It rolls nicely off the tongue, no? Plus think of all the blue suede baby possibilities! I’m really partial to Declan or Dorian, and we’ve also added Giles to the list of possible names. Lucy is partial to Elvis (or Nemo, don’t ask…) though, and will screech loudly if we suggest anything else. Which is great fun on the subway, let me tell you. The most striking difference between number 1 and number 2 may very well be a general lack of solemnity regarding the name. Choosing Lucy’s name was Serious Business Indeed. This kid? Hope you got a sense of humor, boy.
I’m also soliciting advice on cloth diapering–tips, places to order, anything. I’m not 100% sure we’ll do it but I’m right around 97% so anything would help. Ditto reusable menstrual pads, which I’d like to have for post-partum (still remember the hell of the hospital ones.) I have plenty of time to figure it out but I’d like to get started planning since…ok, I’m excited and we already have most of the baby stuff we need and it isn’t time to rearrange Lucy’s room to accommodate Carl Elvis’ stuff yet (mostly because it isn’t on site yet).
And now I need to eat something.